i know that my heart beats for him.

Dear you,
There has not been a day that I live,after u left,without me going on missing you.You might not remember what we had or what I've been through,all for you.I can't love any other guys like I have loved you.No,not even in a million years.It's like I'm standing 6 feet away from you and not being able to find words to say how much you mean to me.I just want to scream across the whole room to say that i love you,i really do.They say that time will heal.I believed that but I lost my faith.I don't think time heals me.I live,yes, I do,but I feel like a walking zombie.My heart is in your hands and I don't want u to give it to me.I love u too much that I'd give u everything.I'd never be able to love another and never going to make it better than i do it with you.I tried but i just can't forget you.But you know what,deng?i'll go on living with a hope that we'll meet again mkay?ily. and these two songs of Katy Perry pretty much explains how messed up i feel. doesn't matter who i am with,my thoughts are still on you.I FREAKING MISS YOU!and yeah,i'd love to spend my another life with u,deng ,because i believe that in this life,the sun just doesn't shine for us.




never planned that one day,that i'll be losing you. *sigh