ur favourite shade of black

tht's just u.n this is me. bullshit la u.so jahat.but it's ok la.i cant stay mad at you.i think u lie bha.crap.stupid you.naahh..it's ok.mls nak pikir.if i think too much,i'll grow old faster.dont want tht to happen to me.i'm stuck on u,anyway..

will i ever be more than just a memory to u?

had a taste of ur perfection and addicted to u eversince though i know it's not worth it..it's like u r my favourite,personal drug.call me desperate for your voice,for u.I dont care.maybe tht's who i am now.u know i just cant resist you.you're the only one who's on my mind 24/7.with u,it's different.different.

catch me though u know u can't

u can be my best buddy.u can say smthn sweet n funny but dont say u love me.
u got ur money.u can spend them all on me but dont call me ur baby.
easy come?easy go.
i'm just too young to settle.let's just say:i aint interested.

across the South China Sea

heroohh sexy ppl,stalkers and viewers.i Miss u all.haha..facebook,etc.it has been awhile since I last updated my blog kan?haha..i wont blog about my sucking life in KL in details.not now.about my new place.ugh.I just want to get over everything FAST!n,uhm.last weekend I went to Instt Jantung Negara,Hosptal PJ,Alamanda PJ.haha..so sakai..bha,k la.nothing new.everything sucks sucks sucks!

final nite b4 i leave to kl

mlm ni,puaskan diri.eat a lot.hbiskan tyme dgn ppl i love:my fam.pack things.enjoy the scenery,simpan the picture in my mind.uhm,pa gyk?btl2 mhayati keindahan rumah n my pink bedroom,the bed,the shin chan comics,the comforter.after this,mmg busy busy busy.lama tak tgk rumah kdirik later.apa blh buat?i have to do wht i have to do.

11 July 2009

my fam is going to buat dinner n ada prayer on 11 july for me b4 i leave.bha..busy busy busy.haha.my fam from sibu are coming to bintulu also..uhmm..church ppl n my fam will be there.no "geng2".hehe~

cake & icing.

cake+icing=YUMMY!
got me screaming WHOA & oohlala!
haha..that's all i can say.. wont blog too much on this. XD

wrapped in vain n gonna miss seahorse's ass.a.k.a Miri

It's official.I m going to leave Sarawak soon.and i dont know wht i should feel.n i have to spend some time in Miri b4 i leave.I love Miri.great memories.Miri is my 1st destination for long distance driving also.so freaking amazing cuz i can overtake cars n drive fast.120 km/h.
I love speed n cars. =)

n yeah,i m still looking for this:

as if the smell still lingers on my skin.*sigh*

Sunday in Miri

On a bright Sunday morning,we went to St.Joe to attend mass.I saw the hot guy that Auntie Janet mentioned.Haha.he's undeniable hot,n easy to notice.He has just joined the choir recently.Then,all of us went to 2020 cafe to eat breakfast+lunch.suddenly,I saw a car n inside that car,ada ktua choir n that hot guy.haha.my aunt n i were so excited to see that.well,dia itu,pangkat saja my aunt,but she's actually still young,around 25 yrs old.

when i was like so excited to eat,after ordering my food n settled down,i spotted a small,dead cockroach in my food.i was like,donno what to say except for 1 word:fuck.i really hate roaches.caka.then,the waitresses there also buat muka seposen.so innocent la rasa.then,tukar free dgn chicken rice.still,i feel like kicking their asses.huh.

my mood was ruined.after tht,my mum n I went to Boulevard to shop.I experienced this:SHOP TILL U DROP.haha.nvr thought that it'll happen to me.sale bha at Boulevard.After that,just in time,we headed straight to our home to get ready to attend the wedding dinner.so lonely without my cousins.i miss them.i felt like crying.i miss boi actually.haha.i wish he was there.i didnt eat like a pig that night cuz i x have mood,so i ended up sitting all alone in the washroom.then,took some syok-sendiri pictures ,

nah..just to prove how bored i was.:

kan kan kan?bored??hehe..cuz i x have my cousins bha..then,all of us in the ballroom snapped some pics.still,cant compare to the fact if i was around him.i called him.he was driving..so,uhm..let him be.we always attend wed dinners tgther bha n dats the moment where he'll owez find ways to hang out wth me.haha.then i owez ask myself,who's getting married bha,since both of us x have a clue on wht's going on in the ballroom.but,we never did anything weird or stupid.dont get this wrong ah ,viewers.but then,i like the way he treats me rite.haha.makes me feel complete,beautiful.chewah.haha.but,i noe,it wont last.

you wanna know why?

i Dont reply text messages cuz I dont want to
i DONT answer ur call cuz I am driving
I dont return Ur call cuz I dont care
I dont contact u cuz I m cool like that.haha
I wear black cuz I m sexier that way
I dont wear white cuz I m too fat
I eat cuz I am awesome
I fart cuz I m a human
I dont want to date u cuz i M too hot for u to handle
I..I..I..cuz i CAN
HAHA..crap. XD

MIri,Here I come!

owh yeah,hello,miri!
I m going to MYY later.I miss Miri..
I m going to attend my uncle's wedding who is Fr.Justin's nephew.
I dont know if Fr.Justin is going to come to the wedding or not.
But,I dont want to hang out with my friends in Miri there.eventhough Eric asked me out last night. i miss u too,maa dinasour..but,bcause i gained weight,haha,i dont want to meet u.I used to use jeans size 28,now..apu..30.haha.I m awesome.I eat like a pig,then look like a fat granny now.hehe..i'll lose weight.LATER.

had a good night~Alex n Dale

cuz i had a chance to watch that Transformers movie:Revenge Of The Fallen from 7pm to 9pm plus with my sis n my lil bro at cinema.(eventhough the movie started at 6.45pm-we're late,but it's okay).
then suddenly,i remembered Eric. *sigh* hehe
then,we were lucky n arrived just in time to go to Alex's place to celebrate Danny's 14th bdae n to pray for Alex who's going to leave soon.It was supposed to start at 8pm but,yeah, I was lucky enough to attend everything in one night.hehe.Alex told me n Dale that he felt being left out,ditched bcause he noticed that everyone was paying their attention at Danny's bdae cake in the middle of the living room that time..hehe..I think he felt ditched because there were too many people there n too busy to notice him.hehe.pity u ,Alex.N sorry,Alex,i didnt give anything to you as ur farewell gift.~Rex was not there with us.I dont know why.Bcause it felt weird if he's not around when there's a party,dinner,etc.I guess he went to someone's else farewell party.uhm..HAHA..THANK GOD,Dale was there also.So,"the 3 judges of American Idol" were hanging out last night."Paula Abdul","Simon","Samuel".
I had a good time at Alex's place last night with Alex n Dale.Tq,guys!
I texted Eric n he replied.hehe.N,owh yeah,Alex asked me "who is that special guy,Yol?".I answered,"u la.."hehe..neves him.But,Alex,he's not Eric ah..i don want to talk about it. XD.
hehe

my hair..

yesterday,i went to saloon * to curl my hair again.
Result:not as good as i expected.but,it's okay la..malas maok pikir.as long as ada curl n tahan lama,mkay?i hope so...huhu..my hair is not too curly bha.it is as if i didnt curl my hair yesterday. :'(
goodbye kaching$$$ with no satisfaction at all.

~say like I mean it~

I ain't shitting around when I told u that i love u
fuck u,asshole.I hate u now.

p/s:i didn't mean to annoy anyone with my words in this post.sorry for any inconvenienced caused.told u,i curse.

sprinkling pixie dusts.hoping for a miracle.

i hope u feel the way i feel
i hope ur brain jams
hope u cant breathe whenever u think of me
i hope that when u dont hear me,u'll feel like dying
i hope u r dead
i dont wish u well
u broke me
u caught me
u trapped me
n i do hope that u'll feel the misery that i feel
i hope u cant eat,n whenever u see food,u see my face
even if u do eat,after forcing urself,i hope u'd choke
i hope u cant breathe n u need a life support just to inhale some oxygen
n exhale that poisonous carbon dioxide
i'll forgive u,but not now
but i m sure i cant forget the way u hurt me somehow
i tried to go with the flow
u dominated me-so much
till i dont know who i am
till i dont know how to think
what to think
cuz u somehow got ur own way to make me think of u
that's so brilliant of u
n so stupid of me
i wake up everyday with jealousy on my mind
cuz i noe u dont think of me with every new day that u have
in the same way that i think of u
n it makes me wonder
makes me so stressful,just to think of u
trying hard to move on but can i?
that day will comes when u feel this way
n i no longer feel bout u this way
i m a fool for u,yeah,now
later?who knows?
table turns.
i have to breathe,breathe u out from my lungs
u lived in me-i noe that
u took away my heart,my pride
but luckily i didnt give my all away
u took n took
but nver gave
what the hell is wrong with you?
u took over me
n it's not that nice of u
i m looking forward for that day to come
when i no longer have u on my mind first thing in the morning when i wake up