all over the place.

some wise men say,

"only fools rush in"

but this statement doesnt have anything to do with my post this time.

so,inspired by that,

i'm gonna say,

"only fools tell everything''.

it's not that i dont want to share my up close and personal life

with all of you anymore,but,

i do feel that

certain things,

i will have to keep to myself.

it's not that i have done anything bad,either,tho.

and this post is actually on what i did last raya.

but,sorry,i x want to blog much.

just want to upload some pics,to give u guys some clues,k?

if u guys interpret those pics wrongly,nasib la.haha

otak korang.

as u all know,a pic speaks thousands of words.

so here it is:

my photo (wth my short hair now)-waiting,counting down the days to go back home(raya)

this one:upon my arrival la.happy sangat2.

n,the rest:history.haha.so,now,i m in kl.so,uhm,yup.life's good,i keep on telling myself that.

but i dont feel like blogging too much,recently.so,take care,bloggers.see you soon,this weekend.

muahhh..

with love,hugs,kisses,some slaps,haha

-yolander-

(the boss)

small world.big dreams.little craps.

i live,i learn.

there are few things in life that i just need to keep it to myself.

people dont have to know what i feel,what i am having.

the less said,the better.

so,hush,yol.

chipsmore

1.study:

Biology test and Chemistry test are just around the corner of my fat ass.As well as I know,I suck in biology because i hate memorising the biology terms.and i do love chemistry,because my ex-schoolmate who i adored for three long years also love chemistry.His name is Daniel Dian.yup,i adore you.you're my inspiration.thanks,niel.I struggled hard to impress you in chemistry,so that i had smthing to talk to you during our high school days.Result:i got A2 for SPM chemistry.studying chemistry now feels tiring,unlike before,it used to be some kind of a pleasure to me,niel,because u were around.but,luckily,our che lecturer name is Mr. Daniel,so,i guess it should be okay,cuz his name will remind me of you somehow.N,i heard u r somewhere here in Semenanjung,doing maritime engineering course.i hope i'll bump into you someday.hehe.

2.life:

OMG!I Cant wait to go home!!!!!Dominic and I are on the same flight.thank God.at least,he could help me on the flight2 thingy,cuz i m a bit sakai.haha.

3.family:

i cant believe that i need my papa now.He's far away from all of us.i never really talk to my papa,for your information.But I somehow need him.i miss my mum too.miss my papa.miss my siblings.kalo kat rumah,mmg gaduh2 dgn my siblings,but,i still love them..aw,come on!i m the eldest sister,tunjuk garang sikit la.haha.kalo me buat salah,i wont say sorry.ego sikit.haha.xkan the eldest sister nak say sorry.but,i'll find another way to make it up to them somehow.For example:cook sup jagung+ayam utk my lil bro.hehe.

4.pets:

OMG!mr. paul,be strong!i know u r old,but don't die first.in fact,dont die at all.haha.we bought lilo for you bha.haha.n,in a loving memory of my shih-tzu dog,who died,at the age of around 4 months due to dog's virus.i love u ,rainee!rainee tu nama adik Daniel!*giggle.

5.Cars:

i miss you,QTF 9856!and,not forgetting,QTF 2466. plat number innova tu dekat2 bdae daniel!!!argh!haha..daniel's bdae:2406.isn't it close?

6.guitar players.

i miss all of "my" guitar players.haha.includes,patrick bilong,Daniel Dian,Garry Andrew,Dominic Lian,Rex Randell.haha.n,myself kot?my fingers sudah x scratch2,but i want them to scratch2 knk all those guitar strings.mcm sexy jk rasa.haha.

7.miri
i used to hate miri so much,but know,i kinda miss miri.beautiful beaches.omg.fuh.i used to hate kolej tun datu tuanku haji bujang,but now sgt2 rindu.u rox la,kolej!thanks for making me a nerd.haha,in a good way,i must say.i miss all of my juniors there and my adik angkat,Philidya Phloria Peter.haha.3P

8.I CANT WAIT TO GO HOME!HAHA

090909

HAPPY 41-th BIRTHDAY TO YOU,PAPA

HAPPY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO MUMMY N PAPA.

today's date is sexy..haha.

i wish the very best in life for both of them.

LOVE BOTH YOU.

TQ 4 EVERYTHING.

I M SORRY THAT I M SUCH A BAD DAUGHTER.

i,their daughter,will somehow try my best to

keep holding on,be strong here.

they dont want me to be weak weak weak.

but,mummy n papa,

just want both of you to know,

life has been kinda harsh towards me.

but,it's great cuz everytime the world stumbles upon me,

it's nice to know that i can return to both of you.

May God bless both of you.

uhm,if i pierce my belly-button,will both of you still syg me?

haha.

uhm. =*

to Marcus with all respect

I know that u r really sincere,i know that.
but just take a look at me.
can't u see how young i am?
u think i can take such a big commitment?
i dont want to marry,yet.not now,not the end of this year.
you might think that i was cheating on you,but no,i'm single till this day,satisfied?
i still got something that i really want to achieve in life.
but,i'm sorry,that it's not you.
K,I lie if say that i xwant to have a boyfriend,
i do want a boyfriend,
but with a guy that shares interests with me.
where. maybe both of us could go to late night drives together.hehe.
i want gerek rilek2 bha!na.u r just too serious.i had to text u 24/7.aduh.
before this,everytime i was playing guitar n not texting u,for sure,u marah2.
please la.can't u see that i have interests in lots of things around me?
bukan ku suka boys,no. bukan itu yg ku cari.u think i come to kl,cari guys.no..
i told you many times before,i like cars and guitars.
so,here,yup,i found 1 "love" of my life:

NISSAN SYLPHY.

omg!so nice!
but when u talked u to me,all u cared bout was bout ugh,ntah la..whatever things that dont really uhm,impress me.
though u said that i am wise enough,matured enough,i still dont want.
some of my friends even have kids now,n they are only 18 years old right now.one of my friend got twins!OMG!haha.wow!amazing!

looking at them,yup,i do feel macam being left out,unwanted,etc,but biar la..(pikiran bodo)

n,yes,while some of my girls at my age are busy fitting G-strings into their butts,

i m busy stuffing myself with the knowledge of playing the 6 strings(bukan type of undergarments.)

can't u see that i m

dead kolot??!!

don't u think u deserve someone

who is better than me? love yourself,don't love me.don't wait for me.
cuz i think it's hurting u,eversince.
i m not a "player" tho.it's just that the time has not come for me.
saya bukan mhina sapa2.ini hidup saya.
n,yes,you do have everything that every woman wants,
n u might not know,i dont know how to cater to you.
u're for sure going to regret having a girl like me,for the rest of your life.
n,yup,

YOU BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME.

kamu tak tau.

u dont know how much i love you.

u dont know how badly i want to be with you.

u dont know how much i adore u.

u dont know how many times i have been crying

and fighting those tears for you.

u suck me dry.

u dont know that i want to live forever with you.

u dont know that i have been praying,hoping for it to happen.

u just dont know.

u dont know that it has been u all along on my mind.

u dont know that i've been waiting,hoping.

u dont know that i'd rather be dead now.

u KNOW NOTHING!

kamu tak tau,saya mnangis.

kamu tak tau,bukan mereka yg saya mahu.

kamu tak tahu,cuma kamu yg saya mahu.

kamu tak tahu,cuma kamu yg bermakna.

wht's the point of getting something that i dont want?

u should know by now:u should know this.

i'm stupid.
i m a fool for you.
u mean the whole world to me.
i mean nothing to you.