it wasn't anyone's fault.then,it's mine?

like wht my housemate said when we ate breakfast at KfC yesterday,it's not "his" problem if I like him.but,it's mine.n yes.i do agree with that.To think clearly,i was like,yup,it's me.I was the one fell down on his knees.ya la...it's a stupid thing called love la.who would have expect tht I was going to fall for him anyway?I thought that i was strong enuf to resist him.but,hell no.nama dah,FALLING IN LOVE.we DONT choose to fall,do we?like that la.i fell into the deepest,darkest pit of all cuz i thought that he's there to catch me once i fall for him.n i got my girl friends around me to hold me up,so that i wont fall fall fall..but,i fell.now,it seems like i m still in that pit n i m trying to get out,find a sunshine.but,i m not going to blame myself either.it's just a part of "growing" thing in life.does it hurt?uhm.not really.breaking up is kinda easy if u have friends,family to talk to.but,unfortunately,they are miles away from me.n i have to call them.money ?wasted..nvr mind.as long as i m happy.define happy?happy means being able to sleep well at night and waking up without feeling lonely.can i ? hope so.i'll be alright,but maybe not tonight.