dentistry

do i really want to go through this?

OR,

will I turn out to be like this:

(except for the fact that the dentist is a male n i'm not.)
DO I??

THE ANSWER IS..

HOPEFULLY,I STILL HAVE CHANCES TO DEAL WITH THE

LAB WORK,CHE ELEMENTS,ETC.

last night. (23rd 0f june 09)

as i lay on my bed,i was struggling with my desire to text Eric Macgyver Paul Strictland.

uhm.

I stared at my cell phone.

stared.

stared.

took it up.

text him.ugh.

I never thought that he was going to reply my text.

bout the transformer movie that we used to watch in Miri last 2 years.

i got issue on him actually,that's y I find it's hard to talk bout hm.

Hard for me to blog bout this.

It's even hard for me to hear "ERIC".

I blog bout this so that,I don't have to forget those "scars" that I once had on maa heart.

When I'm older later,I'll read this blog then I remmber bout this.bout everything.

but,proud to say,"I moved on,got over him"

okayy???

next thing is:can't wait to wish Daniel Dian a very apy n blessed bdae.i HAD a crush on him for 3 years.he's my friend.only at my final day,final year at school,i confessed to him tht i like him.no harm done~

from maa fb:IF U THINK U'RE A HUMAN,READ THIS"

u called me honey
the next thing I know is that u want my money

said u miss me
but i felt misery

u said u need me
i felt left out

said nothing else matters when we're together
but i couldn't trust you

u said u love me
but why the hell i saw u smooching up with that bitch?

u said it won't happen again,ever
i said i can't see us being together ever again

u said don't leave cuz u need me
i turned around
walked away n said i'm not that stupid

night came n i stared right outside my window
loneliness wrapped its arms around me
unconciously,i picked up my phone
and dialled ur number
said,"i miss u,i love u n i need u,no matter what u did to me"
then,we're okay.after the conversation

i whispered to myself"maybe i m that stupid"

note:love hurts,tht's for sure.even Jesus died,suffered for love.above all,love makes the inner,darkest,creepiest,deepest side of you to crawl out from yourself, wthout giving a damn to control ur ego.




p/s:this 1 is from my FB n lots of people like it n responds nicely!
CHEERS FOR THEM!tq!

stressed out!!!!!

i went to church last sunday,on 21st june(if I'm not mistaken),

then i felt like a SHARP SPEAR pierced straight through me when I saw only Nek B n uncle king played guitars bha..

it's just so...EMPTY?

yeah,maybe "empty" is the word(tho it's not the BEST WORD to describe how it really looked like..~poor in vocab~)

should i play this week?nek b keeps on asking me to play.

But,ugh,i x hv cnfidence anymore.

i SUX at palying guitar bha!

n,DOM'S also not around.at least,if he's around,he'll play the lead,Rex'll play the strumm n i just follow rex's strumming. okay??!!

I JUST DONNO K??!I DONT WANT TO PLAY CUZ I FEEL STUPID.

out of credit.

i CAN'T HELP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now,i spend too much $ to call him him him.
ugh.
silly me.but who cares??hahaha..
"xclusive~"
i called him from 2 am until 4 am.hehe..
he even said to me:"y?forgot to sleep ah?" when i asked him what time was it..hehe

shhh...

i wont blog too much on this.
for my own rmbrance,1 word:exclusive.~

FINALLY!

MY "other half" a.k.a. MY BEST FRIEND,CYNTHIA EVA, creates her own FB!

hahaha..so happy about it cuz i've been forcing her to create one,from MONTHS AGO!

uhm.it's killing me

dear blog,

31st may 09:countdown to gawai at ulu.

after midnight:just me,him,ija&liang,my kazen ddek =alone.blm ada Maju dat tyme

BEST NITE EVER

1st july,wth him.uhmm..

2nd july,i made him stay,

he called me 'deng"apu..it means sayanggg..so sweet bha..gawai llabi,he cared 4 me,asked whter i'm sick o not n even offer to search my hps tgther,mlm gawai antu,ppl bz,so,can't be 2gther.

3rd july,gawai antu.MY MAXIS .uhm,chanda,my lil kazen hugged me all the time cuz she was scared.he mabok.tido awal.my other kazens kantoi wth their parents.haha,nasib baik,both of us x.

DAY 1;I MISS HIM

DAY 2;MISS HIM MORE

DAY 3;MISS HIMMMMMM

~it goes on

n THIS LOVE BTWEEN US NEEDS ME TO B STRONGER CUZ this is difficult.

xsangka i fall in lurve wth him

he used to love me,i ignored.haha.ksian my syg. :D

BUT,I CANT HELP IT BHA.