if you only knew.

if u only knew,
that i miss u so much.
since u have been gone,
a part of me is lost too.
I never have said that i miss you,
cuz i know n i do realize that i mean nothing to you.
i never said that i love you,
because i got an instinct that once i said these words,
u're either gonna laugh at me or u'll be surrounded with guilt to to reject me.
No matter how much love i have for you,
they are not important to you.
Cuz,i somehow know,
that i dont have a place in ur heart.
u got someone else,i think.




If u only knew,
that every song I sing,I sing for you.
it's like,ALMOST everything nice that i see,
i picture that i am going to share them with you.

If u only knew,
how hard it was for me trying to let you go.



IF U ONLY KNEW,
how strong it is my desire to be with you,
to sit close,next to you.to feel you.
if u dont want to talk to me,it's fine tho.
i know.aku sedar diri.i might put u to sleep.
ku membosankan bagi u.
at least i could feel ur presence.
cant u see?
i m that desperate now.


i dont mind if u failed academically,or got all of your marks written in red in ur report card,
I DONT CARE.
it's not like i'm gonna marry ur report card!
all i want is u.
not ur car,not ur money,not ur guitar,
not nothing. i only want u.
u n only u.
i dont want ur clothes,not ur hp number,no nothing.
just u.
U
U
U.
i make a wish upon a star,EVERY night ,so that,
on one sweet day,i'd have a chance to hear,to see, n to know that u need me.
only me,
like i do now.
oh how i wish that someday,i'd be able to see ur incoming call in my hp.
oh how i wish that u'll send me a text"gd morning.how's ur sleep?i m quite busy today,but i want u to know,i got u on my mind .so,dont u worry bout a thing k?"


i need u.
i miss you.do know that?
i need you.do u know that?
i love you.do u know that?
i've been waiting,hoping in vain.do you know that?
i m sure that u know.
maybe after reading this,u might say"just let go,yol.i m not good for u.u deserve better..forget bout me,then u'll find ur new life".bla2.
but,sorry.i want u to know,
i tried forgetting you,but u somehow,still stuck on my mind.
give me a chance,will you?Please?

i miss u like hell.

Sweet Lord Jesus,
I know that i've asked lots of things before,
but this time,in this thing,
all I want is just A chance,ONE chance.
U know what I mean.
I need this one chance,so that i'll feel like a human again.Amen.

p/s:i m sorry if this kinda creep u guys out.if it's too emo,too me,too over,etc.I cant please everyone.that's just me.

my tribute.

Sweet Lord,
Thank You for this zillion-th times of living.
U know how fragile,clumsy I am,deep down inside.
U know every corner of my heart,every tears that i've cried,
every whisper that I have said,without anyone noticing it
Thank You cuz U have given me another chance to survive.
What else can I say,dear Lord?
Thank You,with all of my heart,soul and body.
Amen.

u give me butterflies.

u're not like all those other guys that i've been with
i like ur scent,ur smell.
u showed me things i never knew,
u know exactly where to take me,
u know what to do,to say
so i just let you do what u'd do,
u showed me the beauty of rain,stars,darkness n nights
u showed me the wonders of the sun,days and fluffy clouds,
I asked myself,"am i dreaming?"
then i heard,
"u must be thinking that this is one of your fantasies,but,u're not dreaming,deng".♥
oh gosh!

dedicated to Fadly

with a message;you're jerk.i like its chorus.suits you.but it's ok tho.u showed me wht it feels like to b in love.

so i guess,no more birthday celebrations together,no more late-night drives together,

no more break-ins into places anymore.

no more nothing.no more you.

you're my tranquilizer too.

u always said,

"asal ku dekat kw,mmg ko pdh ngantok"

(p/s to readers:bukan yg x-rated tu)

u know that i got insomnia ,right?

whenever i was around u,

my heart skipped in funny ways.

relaxed n uncontrollable at the same time.

but now u're treating me just like another stranger,

so i m dedicating this song to you.

i would like to sing this song on ur wedding day,just to crash ur wedding.

haha.no la.i wont do that.

so,ppl,here's the lyrics(not accurate cuz i m lazy to paste the whole lyrics):

If i'm a bad person, you don't like me

I guess i'll make my own wayIt's a circle

A mean cycle

I can't excite you anymore

Where's your gavel? your jury?What's my offense this time?

You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me

Well sentence me to another life.

Don't wanna hear your sad songs

I don't wanna feel your pain

When you swear it's all my fault

Cause you know we're not the same

Oh we're not the same

The friends who stuck together

We wrote our names in blood

But I guess you can't accept that the change is good

It's good,It's good
You treat me just like another stranger

Well it's nice to meet you sir

I guess i'll go

I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend

Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened

Any longer and I wouldn't have made it

It's not a war no, it's not a rapture

I'm just a person but you can't take it

The same tricks that once fooled me

They won't get you anywhere

I'm not the same kid from your memory

Now I can fend for myself

songs r related to life.

whenever i bump into someone hot,nice(a.k.a perfect),one of the songs related to this situation would be:

-Kat DeLuna-Am I dreaming?

-lonestar-amazed

start having a HEAVY"crush on someone:

-The Veronicas-Untouched

-Lady Gaga-Paparazzi

Paramore-Adore

whenever i tend to like someone that i shouldnt have liked:

Paramore-I caught myself

when guys that i dont like tend to like me:

Paramore-Pressure

-3oh3?-dont trust me.

when i'm "in love(imagination) mode(as if i hv a boifren):

-The used-I caught fire

Avril-I will be

when i'm pissed off due to ignorance by stupid guys:

Paramore-ignorance

when i just cant believe that i'm loved by sm1 i really like:

paramore:just like me

when i tried to forget someone,but tend to remember him AGAIN,even after few years:

Scorpion-I'm still loving you.

-gary moore-still got the blues for you

Jordin sparks-tattoo

songs that i'll listen to when i know that i'll love that guy like, forever:

-Bon jovi-always

-bon jovi-i'll be there for you

aerosmith-i x wanna miss a thing

when i feel positive in forgetting some1:

-robbie williams-betterman

-blind melon-lemon tree.

-gun & roses-november rain

-rod steward&amy belle-i dont wanna talk about it.

hehe.i only include some of the songs la.too lazy to list down all.