if you only knew.

if u only knew,
that i miss u so much.
since u have been gone,
a part of me is lost too.
I never have said that i miss you,
cuz i know n i do realize that i mean nothing to you.
i never said that i love you,
because i got an instinct that once i said these words,
u're either gonna laugh at me or u'll be surrounded with guilt to to reject me.
No matter how much love i have for you,
they are not important to you.
Cuz,i somehow know,
that i dont have a place in ur heart.
u got someone else,i think.




If u only knew,
that every song I sing,I sing for you.
it's like,ALMOST everything nice that i see,
i picture that i am going to share them with you.

If u only knew,
how hard it was for me trying to let you go.



IF U ONLY KNEW,
how strong it is my desire to be with you,
to sit close,next to you.to feel you.
if u dont want to talk to me,it's fine tho.
i know.aku sedar diri.i might put u to sleep.
ku membosankan bagi u.
at least i could feel ur presence.
cant u see?
i m that desperate now.


i dont mind if u failed academically,or got all of your marks written in red in ur report card,
I DONT CARE.
it's not like i'm gonna marry ur report card!
all i want is u.
not ur car,not ur money,not ur guitar,
not nothing. i only want u.
u n only u.
i dont want ur clothes,not ur hp number,no nothing.
just u.
U
U
U.
i make a wish upon a star,EVERY night ,so that,
on one sweet day,i'd have a chance to hear,to see, n to know that u need me.
only me,
like i do now.
oh how i wish that someday,i'd be able to see ur incoming call in my hp.
oh how i wish that u'll send me a text"gd morning.how's ur sleep?i m quite busy today,but i want u to know,i got u on my mind .so,dont u worry bout a thing k?"


i need u.
i miss you.do know that?
i need you.do u know that?
i love you.do u know that?
i've been waiting,hoping in vain.do you know that?
i m sure that u know.
maybe after reading this,u might say"just let go,yol.i m not good for u.u deserve better..forget bout me,then u'll find ur new life".bla2.
but,sorry.i want u to know,
i tried forgetting you,but u somehow,still stuck on my mind.
give me a chance,will you?Please?

i miss u like hell.

Sweet Lord Jesus,
I know that i've asked lots of things before,
but this time,in this thing,
all I want is just A chance,ONE chance.
U know what I mean.
I need this one chance,so that i'll feel like a human again.Amen.

p/s:i m sorry if this kinda creep u guys out.if it's too emo,too me,too over,etc.I cant please everyone.that's just me.