to Marcus with all respect

I know that u r really sincere,i know that.
but just take a look at me.
can't u see how young i am?
u think i can take such a big commitment?
i dont want to marry,yet.not now,not the end of this year.
you might think that i was cheating on you,but no,i'm single till this day,satisfied?
i still got something that i really want to achieve in life.
but,i'm sorry,that it's not you.
K,I lie if say that i xwant to have a boyfriend,
i do want a boyfriend,
but with a guy that shares interests with me.
where. maybe both of us could go to late night drives together.hehe.
i want gerek rilek2 bha!na.u r just too serious.i had to text u 24/7.aduh.
before this,everytime i was playing guitar n not texting u,for sure,u marah2.
please la.can't u see that i have interests in lots of things around me?
bukan ku suka boys,no. bukan itu yg ku cari.u think i come to kl,cari guys.no..
i told you many times before,i like cars and guitars.
so,here,yup,i found 1 "love" of my life:

NISSAN SYLPHY.

omg!so nice!
but when u talked u to me,all u cared bout was bout ugh,ntah la..whatever things that dont really uhm,impress me.
though u said that i am wise enough,matured enough,i still dont want.
some of my friends even have kids now,n they are only 18 years old right now.one of my friend got twins!OMG!haha.wow!amazing!

looking at them,yup,i do feel macam being left out,unwanted,etc,but biar la..(pikiran bodo)

n,yes,while some of my girls at my age are busy fitting G-strings into their butts,

i m busy stuffing myself with the knowledge of playing the 6 strings(bukan type of undergarments.)

can't u see that i m

dead kolot??!!

don't u think u deserve someone

who is better than me? love yourself,don't love me.don't wait for me.
cuz i think it's hurting u,eversince.
i m not a "player" tho.it's just that the time has not come for me.
saya bukan mhina sapa2.ini hidup saya.
n,yes,you do have everything that every woman wants,
n u might not know,i dont know how to cater to you.
u're for sure going to regret having a girl like me,for the rest of your life.
n,yup,

YOU BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME.